today,

KINGSTON HATES EVERYTHING.
He whines at all of his toys and just wants me to walk him around. where?? where does he need to go??? THE APARTMENT IS SO TINY. I CAN ONLY WALK BACK AND FORTH SO MANY TIMES!! PLEASE START CRAWLING SOON, I WILL GLADLY WATCH YOU CRAWL LAPS AROUND THE APARTMENT ON YOUR LITTLE CHUBBY LEGS.

the end (: .

July 20, 2011

Today I read an amazing blog from http://goodmorningvietmom.com/ and it inspired me to write my own blog (or continue it) about motherhood and what God is teaching me. I should preface this by saying a lot of the time I have no idea what I'm doing. I've read tons of books and keep myself in the know about what to expect and do but as most mom's will tell you what works one day doesn't always work the next. So I tend to try to just go with the flow and trust my instincts as a far as parenting goes. I am just discovering everything for the first time and wanted a way to share what I am learning. Maybe it can help someone else. If anything it will help me just by simply getting my thoughts down. The trials and triumphs of my life with a baby which has turned my life UPSIDE DOWN but has also brought me more joy than I ever knew could exist.

Today, for example, was the first day I really heard Kingston laugh. My heart about burst and my eyes welled up. I had never experienced quite a feeling like that. That sweet innocent sound coming out of my favorite little person in the universe. It was magical.

Many times, however, I find myself praying to God for patience and wisdom while I try to stop my body from overheating as I walk around a screaming, tired baby asking Jesus to please let him go down for his nap. Like I said, what works one day...

Patience and peace are my top prayers lately. Peace of mind that I'm doing the right thing by Kingston and patience to be able to calm myself down and be wise about my decisions. I'm trying to read my Bible more, since I haven't been getting much of the word lately. I can't even remember the last time I got to sit through a whole church service. I'm sure I was pregnant. There are a lot of things I should do but I find myself being so tired that in the free moments I do have I just want to veg out. But I'm determined not to let that consume my free time anymore.

There are a lot of things I am trying to better, starting with the above. I know if I ask God he will help me. So here is the start of a very honest, little blog pt. II about my life raising Kingston.

The baby bun is here!!!

I found this on my computer, I wrote it just 5 days after Kingston was born.  Hard to believe that was 6 weeks ago! That was such an overwhelmingly emotional week. You just get flooded with this incomprehensible amount of love that just takes over everything! This overwhelming love for my son, and a new, incredible kind of love for my husband. You think you love someone with all your heart to begin with and then you have a child together and it just takes it to this whole new place. So incredible.

Kingston is such a joy to my life, my heart and soul <3 I have such an amazing little family of 3, it's the best thing in the WORLD. Anyways, here was my blog:



"Oh my word. I am writing this now with my little boy napping ever so sweetly ON MY CHEST. What an amazing amazing feeling.

I can't believe he's actually here. Kingston is 5 days old today. He is the most amazing, wonderful, perfect little human being and I am soooo in love and HAPPY. baby blues? I am ecstatic!  My life is already so much more enriched because he's in it and Chan and I are literally so overwhelmed with love for him. 

Now that he's here, seeing pictures of my pregnant belly give me so much joy. So that's what was in there. That's who I talked to and rubbed and carried with me. Who kicked me and squirmed around night and day. What a miracle.

He is so precious to me. I could not love anything more. I am so so so incredibly thankful he's healthy and happy and blessed with this amazing family of mine.

What a perfect little life I get to take care of. What an AMAZING and supportive husband I have, and what an incredible, loving God I live for.

I feel blessed beyond measure. God is SO good. My life feels so complete <3 "

Reading through this blog again I can't help noticing how many times I use words like "incredible, amazing, joy". There just aren't enough ways to completely and effectively describe how having Kingston has changed my life in such a great way. I remember writing it I was searching for a way to express how utterly perfect and wonderful it felt like and I just couldn't find the words. 

I love this life God gave me :) I could not be more thankful or happier for the way things turned out. 

My due date

is in a week! holy smokes, the next time I go on this thing I could have a little baby in my arms <3

I think my guess was March 15th. That would be Monday! wow.

IT'S ACTUALLY ABOUT TO HAPPEN!!

I can't wait for Chan and I to be a family with our new little boy (:

excitedexcitedexcited.

pray for us!

I JUST WANT TO HOLD MY BABY!!

I cannot stop thinking about that. I can't even imagine how incredibly amazing it will feel to have him in my arms. To finally be able to see him and hug and kiss him. What does he look like?! 15 days until due date.  It's march. It could be ANY day. I keep talking to him and asking him to come when he's ready (preferably that day) but he's too cozy in my belly, so I'm just waiting.  I have been getting sick more recently, and feeling some contractions. and the doctor gave me some great news about how I'm progressing :) So that's exciting. It just makes me more anxious for the day to be here already.

COME ON LITTLE BABY  
we want to meet you already <3

Ultrasound #2

So my second ultrasound was today.  The little man is in prime position for birth! He looked so incredibly squished though, you could only see little parts of him.  like his foot, ear, and part of his face.  The sonographer said he's about 5 lbs 12oz so basically 6 lbs which is right on schedule.  He's just about 3 weeks away from due date, so any day now he can come!

Oh and we've pretty much settled on a name. But we're keeping it quiet in case we change our minds last minute, which wouldn't surprise me..

So that's the update for now (: Just patiently (or trying to) waiting for when he's ready and praying for a safe delivery.

It takes a village

I was just thinking about this today,

I'm sure it takes a village to raise a baby, but heck it takes a village just to HAVE a baby.  Seriously so thankful and blessed for all of the support and generosity from family and friends.  I don't know how anyone could do it on their own.  From the clothes and the gear to the advice and just daily help (you know, things like grabbing something for the pregnant girl so she doesn't have to painfully waddle over and get it), THANK YOU!!!

I am so blessed with the greatest family, friends, and church family and it makes me so happy (:



And on a separate note, I feel like I'm joining a special club of moms.  Other moms are just more open with me, even if I don't know them, and supportive and kind.  It's kind of cool.  So thank you random strangers of motherhood as well! Can't wait to have this little guy to be officially part of the group.